Learning how to be selfish?

O sometimes, I wish I could just say no!

To all the people who keep asking me to do things to which I keep saying yes although I know I should probably say no or give them a piece of my mind

Why can’t you do it yourself

If I were the one I would probably not ask you

Or really, I have too much to do right now

But in a queer way, I like having too much to do-it feeds my vanity and it sure beats the awful feeling of not having anything to do

But then again, sometimes, I wish I had nothing to do so I could read or browse all day-just to my heart’s content

Naaaaa, life is more than that.

Sometimes, you got lots to do

Other times not so much

But anyway, you just gotta do what you gotta do even if it means learning to say no

I aint no supergirl and there’s no way I could please everyone

Just do right and praise the Lord.

Angela Azumah Alu, Legon, 2010

28th November 2010-1st Sunday of Advent

Sometimes, I wonder, dear LORD, where you are within the hustle and bustle of life

In my daily goings and comings, do I really see you in everything, do I live as if I would give an account of my life?

Well LORD, I have to admit that sometimes I live like there’s no tomorrow;like I’d never have to give an account of my life

And when I hear or read your word talking about end times and about judgement, I have to confess I get pretty scared coz there’s so much I’d love to do for you LORD but can’t seem to get round to it. And it’s worse than a student who’s not preparing for the most important exam of his/her life.

And LORD, it gets pretty scary coz LORD, what would life be worth if you are not at the end of it?

LORD do I make nonsense of your words and your laws by my inactions and inertia

Well, right now, I’m getting pretty despondent coz it seems I’m not preparing for you and I’ll probably end up like the householder whose house was burgled coz he didn’t know when the thief was coming; or like the woman who was left behind or like the people o f Noah’s day

Well LORD, right now, before I lose all hope, I remember your word-I delight myself in you my King and I rededicate my life to you.

I say of you LORD that yes I could never earn my salvation by my works-it’s impossible!

But LORD Jesus, that was why you came to die for me on the cross and called me to you and consecrated me even before I was born

It’s so amazing that all the days allotted me were written in your book before they ever came to be.

So LORD, what can I say; King of my heart all I can say is, on my own I could never do it all.

So LORD of my heart, finish the good work you have started in my life.

Keep me close to you and in the shadow of your wings.

Send forth your grace and see me through each day-May I walk with you each day like the day I first met you

Keep your fire burning in my heart daily that LORD I may never never grow cold

May I LORD, love what you love and do what thou wouldst do

Souls for you by my every action

King of my life, make me a good testimony for you that as the only bible some may ever read, I do great marketing for you

A servant’s heart that I never see my gifts sas my own but as a good steward use them for the service of your body

Pernicketyness, if need be, about all that concerns you rather than carelessness

A heart of service that I never tire of serving

But most importantly, love for you-surpassing all and love for your people that love may be my motivation

 Ancient of Days, hide your word in my heart that I walk with you on this earth and heaven only the rightful continuation of that relationship

Thanks for hearing and answering,LORD Jesus

In your name I’ve prayed. Amen

Angela Azumah Alu, Tema, 2010