On weeping and other such thoughts

Whoever said weeping may endure for a night but joy comes with the morning must have meant it figuratively not literally.

Some weeping is unending and joy never seems to come forth

I don’t know if they meant you had to call it forth or just make a decision

But guess what, sometimes, knowledge is not just enough and it even sucks

Coz you know you should rejoice in the Lord always but seriously how do you do that when every moment gets you teary and so hurt you don’t even feel like living

What do you do when you keep doing the same things over and over again and you keep going round and round the same mountain and can’t ever seem to make progress?

What do you do when you are so confused it’s ridiculous and you just can’t make yourself believe or even trust?

What do you do when you just can’t believe, no matter how many times you hear and read, that God loves you just as you are and knows all about you-mistakes and all and has a wonderful plan for your life?

What do you do when you just don’t seem to know what to do with yourself and your life and don’t even think you know what you’re good at and rather see only negatives? What do you do when deep down all you want to do is just cry and never stop-at everything

What do you do?

Sometimes, you can’t do anything but pray, no matter how hard it is and count your blessings.

And remember that you are worth more than five sparrows

And remember that when you can’t feel God, that’s no matter-coz that’s when He’s carrying you and besides we aren’t supposed to live by just feelings anyway.

So go off and watch sparrows and grass if you must-if that will help

Go off and watch funny movies or maybe even laugh at yourself –for allowing these little problems to get the better of you!

And never forget the Father in heaven who is ever faithful and true-He probably just needed to remind you that it’s not all about you.

And besides who said life was all roses and ice cream and cake?

Sometimes, you must have bitter bile to-reminds you to be grateful and makes life so much more balanced.

Smile at someone, God will really appreciate it and it’ll be a sign that you’re growing up!

Always remember God loves you!

Angela Azumah Alu, 27^th January 2011