I loved a boy

I loved a boy; a boy who seemed to represent all I thought I wanted

He was handsome, bearded and nerdy.

He played the guitar; he was a church mouse.

To top it all off, we came from the same region; that was good news.

I loved a boy; we chatted on facebook, on skype and whatsapp.

Those were his preferred mediums; nerdy as he was.

I tried to get him to call or even meet face to face.

Those are my preferred mediums.

I loved a boy; I told my mum about him.

We discussed why he didn’t ask me out.

I told her I thought there was something wrong.

She thought I only liked talking on the phone and should cut him some slack.

I loved a boy; he didn’t agree with my faith.

He was all for Luther’s “solas”

And thought I was in error.

He didn’t want to find out about my faith.

I loved a boy; I was in a faith crisis.

And well, at the time didn’t have many answers.

It seemed my God had forsaken me.

I wondered where this love would go.

I loved a boy; after a year of talking and chatting,

Just when I was rejoicing that he was calling,

He asked me what I thought of us dating.

I was so excited I asked what took him so long.

I loved a boy; he broke my heart when he said he could see no future.

I watched my dreams go down the drain.

My dad said not to worry; God would make a way.

He reminded me of my new job.

I loved a boy; even about three years later, the pain still seemed new.

And I just didn’t seem to have closure.

But now, I knew my God hadn’t forsaken me.

He had been with me through it all.

I loved a boy; he seemed to represent all I thought I wanted.

I may never know what may have happened, but I gave it my all.

Too bad he didn’t see it or didn’t feel the same.

I thank my God whose love never fails; I wait for him to bring me a man who’ll love as He does.

Angela Azumah Alu, 01/07/2018

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